Life has a funny way of revealing to you just who someone is...and who they will continue to be...
Change is such a funny thing - you expect it, hold onto hope, but ultimately people are just who they are. And that's OK, because it will be OK for someone else...just not me.Freckles is just...who he is...And that isn't OK for me, but someone else may be able to handle it.
I just don't have to. It's extremely hard to face this reality, but it is what it is...
I read Baggage Reclaim today, such a helpful website.
He says: I would kill myself trying to make you happy.
Translation: Even if I’m not making you happy, you should be grateful for what I’m doing because I believe it’s a lot. I’m busting a gut here! I have decided what I want to give and what I think you need, and I will give on that basis. You should be grateful! I’d go to the ends of the earth for you…as long as it was no further than the end of my drive.
Freckles often says: I would do anything for you, I never meant to hurt you, and I do everything for you.
But he doesn't. He doesn't realize that he has a problem...it's not alcohol, it's not drugs...it's women.
I just got wind of unfortunate behavior. I don't expect him to be perfect, but it was in my workplace and it was hurtful. I confronted it and it was confirmed.
If there hadn't been other women where this SAME problem occurred - I probably would think it was a rumor, or a misunderstanding...but this is a pattern...and at first it made me angry, and then sad, and then...I've accepted it's who he is...
I feel disrespected, and honestly - I'm tired of it.
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You have to decide what is and isn't acceptable treatment of yourself and then stick to those boundaries. You deserve good things.
ReplyDeleteWhat Sunshine said - I echo. And I'm sorry to hear that, especially at your workplace. Hang in there...xo.
ReplyDeleteI think being tired of it is a good sign - to me that means you're ready to choose a better life.
ReplyDeleteI hate that Freckles couldn't even respect you enough to stay away from your workplace .. he definitely has issues.
Trust you're inner voice .. it knows where you need to be. Hold your head up ... you are strong!